The Death of an Audiophile

Thanksgiving will mark two years since Charles died. I still miss him.

I first met Charles in the 1990s, around the time I began to review recordings and audio equipment. I had just left my apartment and was driving slowly down the street when I spied a somewhat bent-over, wizened-looking man carrying a copy of Stereophile under his arm. My astonishment at discovering another Stereophile reader whom, it turned out, living just two buildings away, brought my car to a sudden halt.

I opened my window. "You read Stereophile?" I exclaimed.

"Why, yes, I do," replied Charles, with that curious mixture of intellectual engagement, hauteur, and combative distance that I was soon to know too well.

So began our friendship. One of the many things that bound us together, in addition to equipment, was our love of classical music. While Charles championed Bruckner, whose music can drive me up a wall, and initially disparaged my beloved Mahler, we both shared a love for renaissance music and "natural" sound.

Within a week, we'd begun sharing recordings and critiquing each other's systems. Mine was certainly in need of improvement. But the system in Charles's apartment occupied another plane entirely.

Charles was an individual for whom the diagnosis Audiophilia nervosa seemed overly generous. In the darkened front room of his extremely stuffy flat, whose windows had not been opened for years, sprawled a system that defied description. To the right of his closely spaced speakers—Charles thought all that "soundstage stuff" was hooey—and not many feet from his ragged couch were his components and cables, positioned in a frightening, widely spaced array that might best be described as a Coney Island roller-coaster run amok.

Each component was suspended on a frequently deflating Townshend Seismic Sink and among them ran cable arrays suspended on various homemade contraptions draped with pieces of white silk. Each shred of silk had found its final position through extensive listening to what Charles felt were the ultimate tests of a digital system: a CD of a single lute or theorbo, and a horrible-sounding, early digital, Deutsche Grammophon recording of Herbert von Karajan conducting a Bruckner symphony.

The silk, Charles was convinced, improved the sound. So did the Cable Jackets, more and more of which seemed to appear as the years went on; the Shun Mook devices, some of which were suspended on amazing, 5'-high, Erector Set–like contraptions that increasingly dominated his house of audio horrors; and the ever-proliferating bass traps that, toward the end of Charles's life, completely surrounded his speakers to the point of musical asphyxiation.

Regardless of the efficacy—or lack thereof—of the many tweaks Charles added, he refused to acknowledge that his speakers were an insurmountable problem. (So were mine, but at least I knew it.) He'd bought them used, without having listened to them, after a reviewer for an absolute authority had declared their midrange one of the finest the reviewer had ever heard. It took me but one listen to deduce that the reviewer had dwelt almost exclusively on the speaker's midrange because its tweeter was a bright, edgy travesty.

The speaker was so flawed that the company soon went out of business. But rather than acknowledge that he'd made a mistake and replace them, Charles bought more and more tapestries, Shun Mook devices, and bass traps. He was determined to get that hideous Bruckner CD to sound right.

"Charles," I would say, "that recording is so flawed that if you ever manage to tame its highs and get its midrange to sound full, every other recording in your collection will sound wrong."

Nice try. It was like trying to convince my Jewish mother. Charles bounced from lute to Bruckner and back again. One day, he'd declare that everything sounded right, only to call back the next to complain that he'd been wrong. Then he would shift a single Shun Mook Mpingo disc 1/16", and call me to rejoice—only to later confess that he'd spoken too soon. One longtime audiophile dealer whom Charles paid for advice declared that he'd never met anyone whose ideas of system setup were so diametrically opposed to his own.

Eventually, I decided it would be best to cease listening to and critiquing his system and simply enjoy Charles for who he was. As much as I found it impossible not to laugh at Charles, there was always a warm place for him in my heart. He was, after all, a reflection of my own obsessed self, magnified 50 times in a fun-house mirror. The more I grew to embrace my own inner Charles, the more I loved the original.

Lord knows how many hours a day Charles spent climbing his ladder to suspend more Shun Mook devices and rare tapestries on the wall. Then, one day, when he was in his early 70s, he fell off the ladder and ended up in the hospital. As his diabetes worsened and his heart problems increased, he began to take even more drastic sonic measures. Once, when I shopped for him, I discovered that he'd shrouded his speakers in plastic and draped them with silk and polyester stuffing. The house of audio horrors had become a wax museum.

As his days grew increasingly dominated by visits from doctors, Charles still occasionally called to share his feelings about recordings. During those moments, we felt as one. But when he stopped discussing his system altogether, I feared the end was near.

After David and I moved into our new house, miles away, I saw less of Charles. On Thanksgiving Day, 2011, I was tempted to call, but knowing that he'd undoubtedly chosen to spend the evening alone, I thought it best to wait. When subsequent calls went unanswered, I drove to our old neighborhood. There I learned that, while his neighbors were visiting family for Thanksgiving, leaving no one near to hear his cries, Charles had suffered a diabetic attack, gone into shock, and died alone.

May you rest in peace, Charles. I hope that death has brought you all the glorious Bruckner chorales your heart desired. Know that you were loved.

volvic's picture

I read this two days ago when I got my mag and thought how there is a little of Charles in all of us, at least I think so.  No matter what I do I also can never improve on those great Karajan Bruckner recordings either.  Great performances, poor recordings.  

Acolin's picture

The bittersweet portrait of poor Charles’ descent into musical asphyxiation is a hard path for us to follow. The poignant sonnet that my Facebook friend Jason Victor Serinus composed is a thoughtful, balanced look at the inevitable descent we all make sooner or later into the darkness. Sometimes we make that descent through our home audiovisual reproduction entertainment systems. Sometimes we are just lonely hucksters on the road. Sometimes the madness that is life affects us just a little and we walk like a sailor, just slightly off kilter, or a tic develops and we twitch just a little, or a cough occurs and we punctuate our conversations with it like an old car backfiring.

That descent is made just a little easier by the gleaming jewels found along our path. Be it family, friends, lovers, audio systems, music, poetry, prose or Arthur Miller play, these are bright blessings. Sparks of brief, wonderful, joyful, exuberant life really. These precious fruits deserve a moment to stop and savor them. To hold their juices in your mouth. To taste their few rare seconds. This is one of them. Thank you, Jason Victor Serinus. 

remlab's picture

...about bad speaker designs will drive us to do. Been there, done that. To bad Charles didn't get his issues resolved before passing.

C'mon Jason, who made the speakers?  

Louis Motek's picture

Truly, there can be no creative space we recognize as authentic, if it were void of all craziness.


Louis Motek

anomaly7's picture



You captured Charles well, and in so doing, you captured a piece of all of us "audiophiles" who search for getting the most out of what we have.

I gotta admit, I'm interested in trying those cable elevators. If they work, I can always spend some dough on something with a greater WAF. As they are, they require no financial investment to try. Someday, I may get around to that...





Long-time listener's picture

Nice piece Jason. It's too bad your friend never discovered how to make his sytem more enjoyable. Likewise, it's too bad his good taste never rubbed off on you. It's hard to imagine anyone prefering the maudlin whimperings of Mahler's 9th to the strong spirituality of Bruckner's 9th, but some do. (Sometimes expressing an opinion requires strong language; my apologies. Take it with a grain of salt.)

Jason Victor Serinus's picture

I've tried rubbing salt into the grooves of Bruckner LPs, but it still doesn't help. 

Long-time listener's picture

Excellent reply. Clearly I can credit Mahler listeners with a sense of humor, if not outstanding taste.

Jason Victor Serinus's picture

Is this a case of rubbing salt into old wounds, or a half-hearted admission that something is there there? Not that Mahler was especially known for his humor....

Long-time listener's picture

Actually, we should probably just say I don't get Mahler and leave it at that. Just as Jason Serinus doesn't get Bruckner. So I apologize for my blunt comments earlier. I listen to Mahler's 7th occasionally and enjoy it fairly much (Boulez/Chicago/DGG), but just can't even get started with most of the others. I put on the 2nd sometimes (Mehta/Decca), but can't finish it. It's frustrating to me that a composer who writes what sounds to me like the musical equivalent of B movies has somehow ended up being one of the most loved composers of the late 20th and early 21st centuries. But music is such a subjective thing that I should learn not to be quite so strident in my comments.

Jason Victor Serinus's picture

No, please be strident, or, at the least, forthright. Why on heaven or earth should classical music lovers be any less passionate than those who go wild over Lady Gaga?

As a professional music critic who, maybe 30 years ago, was thrown out of a clarinet player's house after I launched into an imitation of Elisabeth Schwarzkopf overdoing every single syllable and sound in Schubert's "An die musik," I would want no less. All anyone can reasonably hope for, besides passion, is that the criticism address the music per se, rather than condemning anyone who likes it via ad hominem attacks. There is, after all, no accounting for taste. 

DoggyDaddy's picture

Try Das Lied von der Erde and other song cycles like the Rueckert Lieder - it's not just symphonies.

kelven's picture

Many might perceive Charles as having suffered with psychological challenges and encouraged him to seek "professional" help.

As you noted, in each of us lives a "Charles" (and it happens to be my middle name).

You, dear Jason, were astute enough to see his struggles, but you accepted him as he was, without judgment, nor the often self-serving need to "fix him" (which does not mean you were without a natural desire to help him--as his friend). 

Bravo to you.

My condolences for your loss.